Regarding scholarship exam in class Five my family members were very serious on me. Mistakes on studies resulted severe punishment from my mom and sisters especially from mom. At time my dress code was imposed as full pant, shirt/ T-shirt for outside home and at home cotton shirt and white cotton pajama just like my evening and sleeping dress. Afterwards I rarely wear shorts, for sports I wore full pant. This dress code was because cane marks shouldn’t shown in public. The main punishment of our home was caning by flexible rattan cane. At times in the evening neighbors could easily hear my crying and swishing (ss..sshh..aa..pp..aa..nn.ggg shapang…shapang…) sound of the cane.

There was a turnaround at later part of class Five which is very significant for my cross dressing. At times I wore cotton shirt and white cotton pajama at home. My 2nd second sister got interested and made for me fatua (Short Kurta as mens wear) and white cotton salwar like them. My mom and my eldest sister supported that I also said it’s OK. Those were pleated typical girls salwar. Afterwards I wore different single colored cotton short kurta (Fatua) and white cotton salwar. At winter I wore long kurta (Punjabi) or kabuly (Pathani) suit. In religious program or Friday prayer I wore long kurta (Punjabi) and salwar. In class Six one Arabic teacher taught me on Arabic at home. He wore kurta and ladies type pleated salwar. He liked my dress and made it for his sons. Afterwards I stopped wearing normal pajama and it was replaced by girls salwar except extreme cold, at that time I wear tight pajama.

Meantime I wore secretly my sister’s kameez and dupatta over my salwar and thought to be a girl. Saw me in mirror. In this way I started cross dressing more regularly irregular. Before that I wore my sisters salwar kameez dupatta when nobody at home. But after regularly wearing salwar at home it became easier.

Got such an excellent opportunity what I didn’t think of, what a pleasant feeling couldn’t explain. Hope you can understand my feeling of that time. What I want to wear I got half of that. I was given salwar which is not kabuly pathani salwar or male salwar typically ladies pleated white cotton salwar just like my sisters. I down my feet to floor one after another and feel lots lots of cheers and joys in sky in air.